its funny how people change...

I believe that everything happens for a reason...

I miss the you i knew...The old you...

It sucks that you aren’t the person you used to be...

People change and things go wrong, just remember life goes on...

it’s just so strange to me how something that was once so important to me faded to nothing...

I know people change but its weird for people to change into someone completely different like how can you go from inteligent to ignorant, sweet to rude , helping to selffish...

People Changing Over Time...

Pondok yg belom siap...

Assalamualaikum... happy Friday to everybody... hopefully today is going to be better than yesterday, InsyaAllah...and i think its not too late to wish Happy New Year 1434H to all muslims all around the world...

I got into a small fight (misunderstanding actually) with one of my best friends recently and my feelings are really hurt. I hate fighting with friends and i rarely do it, so this sucks and i try to avoid it. i just want it over as soon as possible as its very upsetting then it reminds me to this quote:

"You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time"

Okey enough of that lets go onto more brighter things... something that excites me lately...Hmmm before i start... please dont get me wrong...im not trying to show off or what so ever. i dont have any other intention indeed.more to sharing...  actually this post is especially for my f&f who constantly non-stop asking me about the progress of my dream house (kunuk)... so this is for you guys...and for next year you guys can come and visit me without worrying no place to stay in Bukit Garam (FYI im a warden and im staying in the hostel compound).. and you guys can stay as long as you wish to ;-)

Maybe some of you have known that i have bought a piece of land here last year. just a small piece not even an acre wide... just enough to build a small 'pondok' of my own... Well i'm not a person who fancies of a big-mansion-house type. i just want a place where i can call it home but at the same time i can have fun without the need to go out. it approximately 30'x40' (not including the porch). I don't want it to be very big. I just want something big enough for a small family that I have been dreaming of insyaAllah. I would love to have a cute little fish pond and also a small garden where i can grow all the fresh herbs used in my cooking..

there will be 4 bedrooms all together with 2 toilets (as usual one in the masterbedroom and another will be at the back). one of the room will be as a ruang solat where there will be no wall on it.two kitchens (dry and wet).. and two living rooms...oh i should attach the plan so that you guys can get a better picture of it instead of writing it here.. later on okey...

so last Mac.. the work begins...(the quality of the pic is not that good since im just using my hp camera)

at the early stage..

 

this was taken somewhere around June...

doing the wall plaster ( sabahan call it memetong)

Attaching the porch...

50%

taken in late October

E.G.O

"kau takkan ke mana H0od... pergi lh sama eg0 kau t0h..."

Ya Allah, Egokah aku? Memang setiap manusia pasti ada sifat ego tapi Ego sangatkah aku sampai dilontarkan begitu rupa? Aku bukan mahu cuba untuk menafikannya tapi aku bukan begitu dan aku tidak pernah diajar begitu... kamu belum pernah mengenali aku sedalam-dalamnya... begitu pantas menuduh aku... sedih apabila dikatakan begitu... hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu...

Aku bukan siapa-siapa yang perlu ada sifat ego dalam diri... Aku hanya manuasia biasa yang tidak punya apa-apa... Aku manusia yang hina... Menumpang di bumi Allah yang fana ini... Sama seperti kamu...

Mengapa perlu ada ego? Tidak perlu... sama sekali tidak perlu...

Maaf sekiranya ada ego dalam diriku... dan jika benar ada ego dalam diriku tidak akan aku tunjukkannya kepada siapa-siapa...  Ya Allah aku mohon kepadaMu semoga Kau buang sifat ego dalam diriku jika ianya wujud tanpa aku sedari... kepadaMu aku memohon dan kepadaMu jualah aku meminta...Amin

dipetik dari kata seseorang...

"Rendahkan sedikit ego mu itu, kamu tidak rugi apa-apa, dia atau mereka juga tidak rugi apa-apa tapi kamu telah melakukan satu keputusan yang membezakan antara KAMU,DIA dan MEREKA.

object of desire...

Oh God i really want this!! went to Samsung center just now and  i cant help my eyes and myself... i need to have this but when i looked at the price i almost gone crazy... cancelled! the price is RM2299!!! if only i have more $$$ i definitely buy it straight away... i cant afford it... so i think i need to save more money to buy it... or should i wait until the price went down next year?? but by that time maybe a newer model will come and nobody wants it anymore... hmmm

so for the time being i must stick to my lovely HTC lor (Handphone Ter-Canggih)...

what attracts me the most is its battery... the batterylife will survive for a day even with heavy usage or with medium usage would be for 2 days and if you use it correctly you will get 3 days until the battery run out... don't you this is so cool??... telan air liur saja la... and its stylus is so stylo... so smooth that you feel like you are writing using a rollerball pen...so natural and fantastically responsive...

p/s : keep on hoping that someone will give it to me as a birthday present.. just to inform that my birthday will be on this coming Dec 21st.. thank you.. huahuahua

this is still quite an awesome smartphone

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raining

i just woke up from a quick nap... i feel dizzy... went to bank just now to withdraw some cash. my sister asked me to company her to Grik tomorrow morning but i cant decide yet whether i want to go or not...

im writing this post in my very own room... alone and not able to tell you what i'm thinking right now... im so confused with my feeling... with myself... i feel sad for nothing. i feel empty...

i should be happy but i feel like crying for no reason... ...... and its raining outside. same goes with my heart i guess...

Holy Holidays!!

Assalamualaikum. Good morning...

its coming!!

Yup i know we haven’t even finished school yet but before you know it, it will be the holiday soon (2 days more to go) my flight will be on 10th Nov..... yippyyyyyy!!! im coming home! coming home tell the world that im coming home!! finally...cant wait to be home again...

you know how excited i am? it such a feeling that cannot be described...i counting days every morning.every night.every minute.every second... just like a prisoner waiting to be free from prison... and im so thankful to Allah. Alhamdulillah, so far Allah has ease my way..

counting my days...

Theres so much of things i wanna do/consider during the holiday...hopefully it will be full of fun and opportunity.

Eat my fav food ::  foods cooked by my mum of course. my fav fast foods which not available here in Sandakan. my sister home-made pavlova. 

Meet up with old friends :: keep in touch with friends as usual i miss all my old friends. this is the time where we can meet, chit chat and hang out together...

Catch a flick at the movies :: watch movies in the cinema...

Have a family night :: my sister has planned a family gathering where she wanted to serve a steam boat dishes

travelling :: i love travelling and the best time to travel is during the school holidays.for this year Singapore perhaps...

shopping :: buy some new work attires, watch and another pair of onitsuka tiger sneakers, home decos

sleep :: zzzzzZZzzzz as much as i want to...

Attempt to get in shape :: above all, eat healthy food, do exercise, enough sleep

there always a sad thing in a good thing.. my friend Noor Hisam is transferring schools next year and im really upset. he's more than a friend to me. he is my mentor my sifoo in photography. thank you for the knowledge u taught me. i wish you all the best in your new school...
to my student Erzuan Syah (actually he's more to my brother) who will finishing school soon, i wish you Good Luck on your STPM exam. i always pray for you. do come and visit me sometimes here. thank you for everything...until we meet again..

sadly both of them will be no longer in SMKBG next year 

mentor Hisam with his apprentices