Pondok yg belom siap...

Assalamualaikum... happy Friday to everybody... hopefully today is going to be better than yesterday, InsyaAllah...and i think its not too late to wish Happy New Year 1434H to all muslims all around the world...

I got into a small fight (misunderstanding actually) with one of my best friends recently and my feelings are really hurt. I hate fighting with friends and i rarely do it, so this sucks and i try to avoid it. i just want it over as soon as possible as its very upsetting then it reminds me to this quote:

"You can't have a better tomorrow if you are thinking about yesterday all the time"

Okey enough of that lets go onto more brighter things... something that excites me lately...Hmmm before i start... please dont get me wrong...im not trying to show off or what so ever. i dont have any other intention indeed.more to sharing...  actually this post is especially for my f&f who constantly non-stop asking me about the progress of my dream house (kunuk)... so this is for you guys...and for next year you guys can come and visit me without worrying no place to stay in Bukit Garam (FYI im a warden and im staying in the hostel compound).. and you guys can stay as long as you wish to ;-)

Maybe some of you have known that i have bought a piece of land here last year. just a small piece not even an acre wide... just enough to build a small 'pondok' of my own... Well i'm not a person who fancies of a big-mansion-house type. i just want a place where i can call it home but at the same time i can have fun without the need to go out. it approximately 30'x40' (not including the porch). I don't want it to be very big. I just want something big enough for a small family that I have been dreaming of insyaAllah. I would love to have a cute little fish pond and also a small garden where i can grow all the fresh herbs used in my cooking..

there will be 4 bedrooms all together with 2 toilets (as usual one in the masterbedroom and another will be at the back). one of the room will be as a ruang solat where there will be no wall on it.two kitchens (dry and wet).. and two living rooms...oh i should attach the plan so that you guys can get a better picture of it instead of writing it here.. later on okey...

so last Mac.. the work begins...(the quality of the pic is not that good since im just using my hp camera)

at the early stage..

 

this was taken somewhere around June...

doing the wall plaster ( sabahan call it memetong)

Attaching the porch...

50%

taken in late October

E.G.O

"kau takkan ke mana H0od... pergi lh sama eg0 kau t0h..."

Ya Allah, Egokah aku? Memang setiap manusia pasti ada sifat ego tapi Ego sangatkah aku sampai dilontarkan begitu rupa? Aku bukan mahu cuba untuk menafikannya tapi aku bukan begitu dan aku tidak pernah diajar begitu... kamu belum pernah mengenali aku sedalam-dalamnya... begitu pantas menuduh aku... sedih apabila dikatakan begitu... hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu...

Aku bukan siapa-siapa yang perlu ada sifat ego dalam diri... Aku hanya manuasia biasa yang tidak punya apa-apa... Aku manusia yang hina... Menumpang di bumi Allah yang fana ini... Sama seperti kamu...

Mengapa perlu ada ego? Tidak perlu... sama sekali tidak perlu...

Maaf sekiranya ada ego dalam diriku... dan jika benar ada ego dalam diriku tidak akan aku tunjukkannya kepada siapa-siapa...  Ya Allah aku mohon kepadaMu semoga Kau buang sifat ego dalam diriku jika ianya wujud tanpa aku sedari... kepadaMu aku memohon dan kepadaMu jualah aku meminta...Amin

dipetik dari kata seseorang...

"Rendahkan sedikit ego mu itu, kamu tidak rugi apa-apa, dia atau mereka juga tidak rugi apa-apa tapi kamu telah melakukan satu keputusan yang membezakan antara KAMU,DIA dan MEREKA.

object of desire...

Oh God i really want this!! went to Samsung center just now and  i cant help my eyes and myself... i need to have this but when i looked at the price i almost gone crazy... cancelled! the price is RM2299!!! if only i have more $$$ i definitely buy it straight away... i cant afford it... so i think i need to save more money to buy it... or should i wait until the price went down next year?? but by that time maybe a newer model will come and nobody wants it anymore... hmmm

so for the time being i must stick to my lovely HTC lor (Handphone Ter-Canggih)...

what attracts me the most is its battery... the batterylife will survive for a day even with heavy usage or with medium usage would be for 2 days and if you use it correctly you will get 3 days until the battery run out... don't you this is so cool??... telan air liur saja la... and its stylus is so stylo... so smooth that you feel like you are writing using a rollerball pen...so natural and fantastically responsive...

p/s : keep on hoping that someone will give it to me as a birthday present.. just to inform that my birthday will be on this coming Dec 21st.. thank you.. huahuahua

this is still quite an awesome smartphone

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raining

i just woke up from a quick nap... i feel dizzy... went to bank just now to withdraw some cash. my sister asked me to company her to Grik tomorrow morning but i cant decide yet whether i want to go or not...

im writing this post in my very own room... alone and not able to tell you what i'm thinking right now... im so confused with my feeling... with myself... i feel sad for nothing. i feel empty...

i should be happy but i feel like crying for no reason... ...... and its raining outside. same goes with my heart i guess...

Holy Holidays!!

Assalamualaikum. Good morning...

its coming!!

Yup i know we haven’t even finished school yet but before you know it, it will be the holiday soon (2 days more to go) my flight will be on 10th Nov..... yippyyyyyy!!! im coming home! coming home tell the world that im coming home!! finally...cant wait to be home again...

you know how excited i am? it such a feeling that cannot be described...i counting days every morning.every night.every minute.every second... just like a prisoner waiting to be free from prison... and im so thankful to Allah. Alhamdulillah, so far Allah has ease my way..

counting my days...

Theres so much of things i wanna do/consider during the holiday...hopefully it will be full of fun and opportunity.

Eat my fav food ::  foods cooked by my mum of course. my fav fast foods which not available here in Sandakan. my sister home-made pavlova. 

Meet up with old friends :: keep in touch with friends as usual i miss all my old friends. this is the time where we can meet, chit chat and hang out together...

Catch a flick at the movies :: watch movies in the cinema...

Have a family night :: my sister has planned a family gathering where she wanted to serve a steam boat dishes

travelling :: i love travelling and the best time to travel is during the school holidays.for this year Singapore perhaps...

shopping :: buy some new work attires, watch and another pair of onitsuka tiger sneakers, home decos

sleep :: zzzzzZZzzzz as much as i want to...

Attempt to get in shape :: above all, eat healthy food, do exercise, enough sleep

there always a sad thing in a good thing.. my friend Noor Hisam is transferring schools next year and im really upset. he's more than a friend to me. he is my mentor my sifoo in photography. thank you for the knowledge u taught me. i wish you all the best in your new school...
to my student Erzuan Syah (actually he's more to my brother) who will finishing school soon, i wish you Good Luck on your STPM exam. i always pray for you. do come and visit me sometimes here. thank you for everything...until we meet again..

sadly both of them will be no longer in SMKBG next year 

mentor Hisam with his apprentices

Raya in style

i know Eid is already over... just want to share with you my Baju Melayu(s) for this year... so which one is better?

Cekak Musang

Teluk Belanga

wahai hati

Hati yg terluka bukan mudah utk diubati.. mungkin ia akan sembuh.. namun parutnya tetap akan ada.. terkadang kita menyendiri bukan menyombongkan diri..tetapi menyendiri takut diri disakiti lagi.. dan lebih takut lagi kita pula yang akan menyakiti ..disebabkan parut yang masih bersemadi... wahai hati... pulih lah... pulih lah... ya Allah aku jua tidak mahu begini... namun... hati ini... tidak mampu utk pulih berdiri kembali... ya Allah kurniakanlah kesembuhan... agar hati ini dapat menyumbangkan keriangan di hati insan lain dan diri sendiri... Amin...

Doaku Untukmu Sayang

Im not that emotional on the outside so theres no songs that will make me cry every single time... but without any reason somehow i cant help myself from crying after listening to this song.. the lyric is just too deep.. everytime i listen to  it i cry like a baby ;-(

Kau mau aku apa, pasti kan ku beri

Kau minta apa, akan ku turuti

Walau harus aku terlelap dan letih

Ini demi kamu sayang

*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.Net

Reff:

Aku tak akan berhenti

Menemani dan menyayangimu

Hingga matahari tak terbit lagi

Bahkan bila aku mati

Ku kan berdoa pada Ilahi

Tuk satukan kami di surga nanti

Tahukah kamu apa yang ku pinta

Di setiap doa sepanjang hariku

Tuhan tolong aku, tolong jaga dia

Tuhan aku sayang dia

Repeat reff

(Tuhan tolong aku, jaga jaga dia

Tuhan ku pun sayang dia)

the Four-door finally mine!

bigger fridge means easier to organize?

This is the four-door Hitachi fridge which i bought yesterday. i've been dreaming of using this type of fridge since ages ago and now Alhamdulillah thanks to Allah its finally mine! i dont know, eventhough i live alone, i still have problems with my old two-door LG fridge i mean in term of its storage capacity. still not enough for me and i need a bigger one (the problem is i like to buy foods without any purposes or reasons).

i like to see my foods in neat proper order and i hate it when i open the door and eggs falling out from nowhere.. its really too much!

i've been surveying on fridges since a couple of months ago and i was keen on Samsung's double french doors fridges but this not-so-latest model by Hitachi has bowled me over! finally i made up my mind to chose Hitachi based on its size, design and i think this is one of the best refrigerators as compared to all other refrigerators in it class available in the market. I like the cooling factor that helps you in saving of electricity and also your money and its water dispenser is conveniently integrated in the front door area anytime time that u need it..

sold my two-door LG fridge to my friend for only Rm300

Somehow, somewhere i’ve come to the conclusion that no matter how big the fridge may be, there’s will be never enough storage space. i might be thinking of buying a bigger and more doors fridge in the future..  woooooo

Raya 2012- Part 3

on the early morning right after Eid Fitri prayer - visiting the graves and reciting the surah al-Fatihah and Yassin over the deads.
Al-fatihah..

"Whoever recites it seeking the pleasure of Allah and the hereafter will receive Allah's forgiveness"

InsyaAllah, so recite it to your dead and may Allah will avail us with His blessings and barakah. Amin
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Raya 2012 :: Part 2

There is no reason for Muslims not to pay their Zakat Fitrah and today alhamdulillah im doing my part as a muslim..

RM7 for Sabah state..

'Inilah wang bagi menggantikan beras fitrah yang wajib ke atas diriku pada tahun ini kerana Allah Ta’ala'

Raya 2012 - Part 1

one of my fav during Hari Raya

Assalamualaikum and happy fasting to everybody...

how time flies, its already 20th of Ramadhan now and thats mean we are nearing to the month of Syawal and to the end of Ramadan al mubarak soon... and yes this is the 5th year im going to celebrate the Eid away from my family ;-( ... its sad and of course it is difficult to be away from our love ones especially when my mum is not really well (mum was diagnosed of early cataract and had cataract surgery last Jun... even thought the surgery went well, its take some times for elder people like her to fully recovered). Hope you will get well soon Ma..Amin

many asked me why im not coming home for Raya...i just dont know... sometimes i feel like im belong here.this is the place that i should be. i feel happy here. i have everything that i wanted here and thats why im happy to be here... but of course i miss my family, my friends... i miss home cooking especially my mum's signature rendang campur minang (mixture of a spicy meat, liver, lung etc  dish) kuah lodeh (coconut vegetable stew) and having good times with my relatives and friends.i still remember we used to send each other kad raya back then during my childhood...this practice had become our routine during/before Hari Raya. it was so much fun when you received a musical card instead of the ordinary raya card (bangga gitu).but now i dont even got one.people tend to send electronic cards via facebook or sms (much more cheeper and fast). and one thing i cannot forget how fun it was to play the firecrackers and fireworks during the nights before hari raya..

Rendang Minang- mum's resipi

Lodeh- its a must have!
(with sambal sotong kering and kuah kacang)

Pineapple Tart- evergreen Raya cookies

by the way, since im not going home this year i'll be celebrating the Eid at my student's place in Paris (dont be surprised we also have a place named Paris here in Kinabatangan). Wawan to be exact (he's more to my brother actually we have been so close since last year that we have treat each other just like brothers).his family also being nice to me. they treat me just like their family even thought im a stranger. i feel comfortable there just like being at home. im going to stay there for a couple of days.and for this year we have decided to chose to wear the same colour for our baju melayu.. guess what colour it is? hehe will upload and post it later.. 

Last Year Photo- He won for the best Baju Melayu

I would like to take this opportunity to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri especially to my beloved family members back there in Gombak (Mama, Abah, Along, Angah, Yanti, Nora, Ayin and all my nieces and nephews, brothers and sisters-in-law .sorry i cannot celebrate Raya there with you guys again this year), my beloved relatives, all my friends (especially my good friends who are always there for me!), neighbours, colleagues, students and all muslims around the world. I also would like to apologize for anything that I have said and done that might have offended any of you. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Please forgive me deep from the bottom of my heart. 

Olympic ....

olympic fever is on....

aku mmg takkan bisa....

hehehe terdengar lagu ni time driving last week.. tp tak tahu tajuknya.. search di google baru tau ini lagu kumpulan Slank.. actually lagi ni lagu lama and what i like the most about this song is its lyrics..very thoughtful and somehow its reflected my feeling right now.. so this gonna be my theme song for this moment...

oke enjoy it urself...

Pernah berpikir ’tuk pergi
Dan terlintas tinggalkan kau sendiri
Sempat ingin sudahi sampai di sini
Coba lari dari kenyataan

Reff: Tapi ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu

Lalu mau apa lagi
Kalau kita sudah gak saling mengerti
Sampai kapan bertahan seperti ini
Dua hati bercampur emosi

Repeat reff

Sabar sabar aku coba sadar
Sadar sadar seharusnya kita sadar
Kau dan aku tercipta
Gak boleh terpisah

Reff2: Dan tak bisa jauh jauh darimu
Ku tak bisa jauh jauh darimu (3x)

guilty...guilty not

To whom does the fault belong?


me? (im sorry.. i didnt mean to)
u? (perhaps...)
them? (they have nothing to do with this)


whoever it is and im glad its over...

Sham Kamikaze is in the town!

senyum sokmo ustad

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera. 1st of all selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan al mubarak bagi mereka yg beragama Islam. hopefully thn ini kita mendapat barakah dan kurniaNya.. Amin.. make sure puasa cukup 30 hari...

lama rasanya tak update blog ni. nothing special yang nak dikongsi sebenarnya.. cuma baru2 ni 15 Julai  saya berkesempatan berjumpa dan bergambar dengan salah seorang idola saya.. mayb ada yang dah tak kenal dengan jejaka berkaca mata berambut pendek dan berjanggut ini sebab imej sekarang dan dahalu sangat jauh berbeza. inilah dinamakan penghijraan.suatu yang dituntut..berubah ke arah kebaikan.. walaupun cuma sempat bersua sekitar sejam saya boleh rumuskan beliau seorang yang merendah diri, peramah dan kaya dengan senyuman (petua untuk kelihatan sentiasa muda bilangnya..hehe)

idol

actually beliau datang ke sandakan atas urusan mengadakan ceramah agama but unfortunately saya tidak berkesempatan untuk mengikutinya akibat tersalah tempat. dapat maklumat bahawa beliau akan mengadakan ceramah di masjid daerah sandakan tetapi sebenarnya beliau mengadakan ceramah di dewan masyarakat sandakan. jd.melepaslah saya ;-(

nasihat sebelum outing

well, kalau dah kata darah photographer tu mengalir dalam badan ke mana saja beliau pergi pasti takkan lekang dari cameranya. sempat juga beliau memberi tips2 dan nasihat2 berkenaan photography. bilangnya beliau lebih berminat utk mengambil gambar2 pemandangan dan alam ciptaan Tuhan.. jd senang saja lah tak perlu cari model2.hehe so kami outing sekitar pasar besar sandakan...

objek :: ikan masin

sain utk peminat

so ustad harap kita akan berjumpa lagi di lain waktu.. see u again..salam

gambar kenangan

Baju Raya

went to jalan TAR with one thing on mind. need to find the right colour.. so hard! very hard! too many to chose from!
finally i've choose one... no regret! no turning back..... Yes! hope it will look good with me.
Next gonna find the right colour sampin. oh no not again!

i wish for white

Jakel TAR

Jarak

aku suka ngan post dari wall Lelaki Soleh Dambaan Wanita Solehah... cukup bermakna..

Jika RINDUKAN SESEORANG , PEJAMKANLAH MATA dan UCAPKANLAH : " Ya Allah Aku rindukannya keranaMu Ya Allah , Jauhkanlah aku dari perkara yang membuatkan aku lupa kepadaMu . Aku semakin mengerti, ‘JARAK’ ini bukan untuk menghukumku..tetapi ‘JARAK’ ini untuk MENJAGA aku dan dia.. 

✿~ Dengan ‘JARAK’ ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk BERUBAH menjadi yang lebih baik.. 

✿~ Dengan JARAK ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk MEMPERBAIKI cinta kepada Ilahi.. 

✿~ Dengan jarak ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk MENCINTAI Pencipta kami lebih dari segalanya.. 

✿~ Dengan JARAK ini aku dan dia berjanji untuk MENDALAMI Islam hingga ke akar umbi.. 

✿~ Dan Dengan JARAK ini jua aku dan dia yakin andai tiba saatnya nanti, aku dan dia akan LEBIH BERSEDIA untuk melayari semua ini dengan jalan yang diredhai.. 

p/s : Terima kasih ya Allah kerana memberi PELUANG kepadaku melalui jalanMu ini..terima kasih kerana memberikan JARAK itu kepada aku dan dia..